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Sunday, July 22nd, 2007
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10:18 pm
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It's been a long time...
Ok it's lame to start another entry like this. I simply just forgot this place, and didn't feel like writing in English for a long time. The thing is, when I think or write in English, I think with an American accent. I don't feel like being this superficially American anymore. I am not American. I've never been to the US. And I don't like most things about this country.
Except that perhaps Livejournal is American.
A lot of things have happened. Marriage, sick mother, and all kinds of stuffs that come when you grow up. Subconsciously I always wish that I could go back to the time when I was in high school - I know this because I always dream about high school, about the time around the end of junior year. I always tell myself in my dreams that I should work hard during the last year.
Alas, it's too late for that. Time is passing awfully fast. I know that one day I'll be thinking about my life, how it all happened so fast like I was thinking about the year 2007 today. And I know that this day will come really fast, too.
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| Monday, October 16th, 2006
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11:50 am
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English was horrible this morning. I was already nervous as i didn't understand at all the topic that we were supposed to prepare. And then Fafa got upset before go to bed cos i didn't like him bumping into me in bed all the time and told him dryly to stay in his corner. It was quite some time to comfort a big baby, and then we just talked till 3am and there goes my Sunday night's good sleep down the drain...
I'm feel so sorry for Ms Allomong. I hated my participation this morning. I like her so much and I always wished that i could work up a question to ask her afterclass. And there was that horrible girl stomping into the classroom 5 minutes before the end of the session, sucking into her lollipop, and acting as if uh, like nobody was supposed to be there except her. To my surprise.
Today i wear turquoise and brown. these colors work terrificly well together. So what are we planning for our last 5 days of bachelor life? Will I get used to wearing that big thick wedding ring?
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| Thursday, September 28th, 2006
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1:23 pm
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God I hate school. A cocktail party for everyone at the Institute during class time, and présence obligatoire? Yeah, if that's what it takes to see some bigshot lawyers, and Monsieur le Directeur himself.
And the tuition fee's like... robbery. 160 euros for "supplementary registration"? Just because that I'm student at the same University?
It's certainly going to be a draconic year. Finishing at 21:00 everyday, extra classes now and then on Saturday afternoons, 3 papers a week, all that adding up to a wife's share of housework. And, above all, gotta get an average above 13.
current mood:  stressed
current music: Mud On The Tires
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| Wednesday, March 8th, 2006
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1:36 pm
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I am more and more aware of the fact that my mind is getting old.
Facts:
1. i put my credit card in my wallet where I usually put cash and then thought it was lost/stolen and diclared it lost. I found out today that it was nowhere else other than in my wallet; actually, it doesn't occur to my mind anymore that the cash pocket is also a part of the wallet.
2. I keep forgetting personal stuffs in strange environment, which never ever occured to me.
3. I can't clearly tell how many tasks I have been assigned to.
4. I keep forgetting what am I supposed to do when I set out for something.
5. I have no clear idea about when was the last contact with my parents or my best friend and what it was about.
Beside all this, I have the strangest dreams each night, about adventure, Kong Fu fightings, detective story... long dreams and complete plots. What on earth's going on with my mind???
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| Friday, March 3rd, 2006
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12:39 pm
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The good news is, I passed my finals. I'm going to junior year. The bad news is, on the same day, I lost my credit card. It disappeared this time in a way too complete and after a day's search I declared its missing.
To celebrate the better part of the day, we went to the only potable Chinese restaurant with Wei. We, or to be exact, I ordered way too much food for 3 people and had to bring home 2 huge doggy bags afterwards. The Chinese wine rosé wasn't bad. Fafa paid the bill. I had a great time.
The book I'm reading right now is Harlan Coben's Tell No One. It's the most exciting read since a long time. Or maybe it's just that I didn't know how to choose books that could please me. The next one I'm planning to read is The Time Traveler's Wife. And then perhaps Saturday of Ian McEwan. Reading's a fine habit. It kills the pain of counting stops in the subway, and the embarassment during idling moments.
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| Thursday, February 9th, 2006
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3:44 pm - The American way
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I again had the honor to deal with some seller over wrong and broken delievered product. Once you start to point out the fact they didn't send you the right stuff, there goes the famous:
"Don't be nasty!"
I wonder if an equivalence would exist in French, and even if it did, would the Frenchies use it in business dealings?
Don't be nasty. Like I were nasty. Or, I'm nasty once I start saying, hey pal why didn't you do your job?
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3:05 pm
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I think I'm getting really old. It's like my memory's getting worse, and I'm becoming more and more absent-minded.
Then when it comes to problems I no longer can seize the main point of the stuff and always have to beat around the bushes. This is so weird.
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| Tuesday, February 7th, 2006
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11:56 am - The resolution
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It's my 5th day at work today. I'm never a early person, and during these 5 days, the time that I arrive each morning at the office:
Day 1: 09:00 (first day pretty normal)
Day 2: 09:20
Day 3: 09:45 (dropped at the bank before)
Day 4: 09:45
Day 5: 10:00
And I ran right into the boss at the doorway. She's nice, just hi hello. And I thought, oh I think this is pretty much the bottom line.
I have to go to sleep early. I have to do that starting from today, though a party at Guillem's place in the evening is not going to help. I hope this is going to work.
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| Monday, February 6th, 2006
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2:50 pm
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I'm now stuck in the middle of something.
I just got myself a coffee, cos' I noticed that I was about to doze off. I need to find out a about the identity of a company that's no longer itself. Well, let me reform that. I need to clarify if the party with the new name has an action... yeah that's more like it.
Coffee's a good thing. It keeps you awake. I wonder what do my dear old folks do at home where an Espresso machine does not exist.
And uh, the predictability of the damage.
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| Thursday, February 2nd, 2006
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10:22 am
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| Friday, January 27th, 2006
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2:41 pm
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Not many days of vacation left...
Feburary 1 - June 30, intership at Clyde & Co., Paris Office.
Then we'll be planning for the summer. We're thinking of going back to Beijing with Fabrice, to show him my country, family and friends. But it's not going to be that easy. I hope Dad won't be mad at the idea of me having a boyfriend, or even a fiancé, though a very nice one.
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| Friday, November 25th, 2005
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12:32 pm
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Been really really busy with stuffs lately. Got to see people like doctors, insurers, bankers, internet technicians. Thankfully, today should be the last day. Everything should be figured out now, finally.
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| Wednesday, October 5th, 2005
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9:56 pm - It's been a long time...
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Just spend half an hour or so reading my old posts, two thoughts: 1. my english used to be so~ much better; and 2. wow.
I mean, how time flies and how life changes and how things are so unpredictable...
The time when I started writing a blog, it was when I was tracking down my favorite artist Wang Leehom and ran into his little brother's livejournal. It wasn't really JUST a way to get closer to my target, but I really found this thing awesome.
I look at the posts written during my first year in Paris and can still think of those lonely nights. The only conversations were between me and my dear computer. Now life's tremendously different, it's a life that me of then wouldn't dare imagine, and that somehow came true.
*****2002-2006 *****
Places that i've been: Beijing, Aix-en-Provence, Paris, Shanghai
Number of men that i at least appreciated: H.D., C.P., Y.L., J.G.,I.N.-R.,J.L. and F.L. that's 7 but only had 2 became my boyfriends
Things that made me cry really hard: got rejected by American colleges, got refused by a man, got dumped by a man and failed my year -- study/love affairs 2:2
Things that I tried to learn: piano, French hand-writing, taking care of myself, make-ups, kissing, archery, making out, italian, (to be a bad girl but project aborted)
Greatest lessons: true to your heart; let go of things; and work will never fail you.
Other achievement: made a lot of friends, got to know the country, take care of myself, know must spend less money, picked up reading, speak better French, have a vague idea of what i'm gonna do with my life...
to be updated...
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| Monday, September 19th, 2005
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6:51 pm
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Meg Ryan used to talk about a certain "bull-shit meter" in one of her interviews with an English magazine. Something like that should work alright.
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| Wednesday, August 31st, 2005
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6:20 pm
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| Monday, August 29th, 2005
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9:10 pm
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Let me show you the brighter side of the story.
1/ I lost 7 kilos, that's 15 pounds, which makes me one more big step closer to the idealist beautiful me. No really, now I look at myself and I'm really really satisfied.
2/ I learned some things. Now some of the grey areas of the world are totally opened up to me.
3/ I speak and write better French.
4/ I now know that what my 2 biggest shortcomings are: capricious, and money squandering.
5/ I know that I have a knock for guys with a certain type of face.
6/ I know far better now the religion of christianity and stuff.
7/ I know that I need someone most with GREAT determination.
8/ I now know that actually I'm physically attractive.
9/ Now I'm determined not to have another relationship in 4 years.
10/ Books are our best friends.
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| Friday, August 26th, 2005
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8:33 pm
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This afternoon I went to the library for the 1st time since I got back to Paris. I was hungry but the library was wonderful. I finished my work on crim law and on the way home, I dropped by at the Church of St.Genevieve. I wanted to find a little peace in there but as I sat there at one of those chairs, visitors kept murmuring and walking by. I wanted to find the answer of my heart to all the questions. What I only got was, "I wanted freedom."
Now as the night is falling, I listen to my iPod with the old earphones that I just brought back here. I wish I could be the master of my heart.
I'd like to say sorry and thank you to all those who've been there listeing to my complaints my worries and my confusions. Thank you thank you so much, and I'm sorry to have been so disappointing. I promise I'll do better next time.
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10:56 am - Ibou
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Yesterday's card was: Magician, meaning, creative activities or new events.
So when I sat down at the bank of the River Seine, a tall black guy came up to me. He was eating an apple and asked if I'd like a bite of it after saying hello. Usually I don't know how to refuse people approaching for conversations. So we talked. (Of course I didn't take the apple!) He's a law student too. I tried to be half absent-minded and half hostile. When his friends came and he went to say hello, I stood up with my legs already numb of coldness and started to go away. Later he caught up with me and asked my number. I hesitated for a while if I should give him a made up one. He gave me his, the name was Ibou, pronounced like, "hibou". I started to wonder why. (cos' I had this strange interest in owls some time ago.)
I walked home, and while I was on the street I almost started to cry. When there are so many people out there giving me attention that I don't care about, why can't you give me just a little bit more, so that my heart can be filled with joy every single day, instead of fear and inquietude?
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10:54 am
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I'm constantly being scared by the possible outcome of this event.
What if...?
What if?!
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| Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005
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6:13 pm
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Hua Quitter ce profil
4 Août 2005
D'une manière générale, vous vous sentez assez sûre de vous en ce moment, Hua. Mais dans le domaine sentimental, c'est une autre affaire... Vous ne savez plus très bien comment vous comporter. Vous avez perdu vos repères habituels. Rassurez-vous, c'est très passager et complètement lié à la situation que vous vivez actuellement. Et dès qu'elle évoluera un peu vous y verrez beaucoup plus clair...
d'accord.
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